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Friday, April 29, 2011
alone and vulnerable
Does anybody still read my blogspot nowadays?? Since this year started , it's funny because my interest in fashion and design has sort of waned. yes, even gyaru fashion. Maybe it's my lack of girl friends here in California? Seriously, I'm also to blame, but I feel like I've lost touch with meeting with girl friends on a regular basis.. I guess school and work has been taking so much of my time for me to even have a social life. Plus I'm so exhausted after both school and work, the only time I have left is for sleeping. I think I'm getting old. Also, there are people always moving away, my two BFF are in Alabama and Japan, whenever I make plans to meet with someone, they're either busy or they have no money, when I get invited as well, it's always the wrong timing and I never have money.
I'm not sure, but the bubble I lived in Hawaii seems so comforting now. Is it because of the tiny island, that I was able to meet with friends on a regular basis? It was so easy to drive from Kapolei to Honolulu because even though of the horrendous traffic, it was feasible. I feel like here on the mainland, I feel so disconnected from people I could have potentially great relationships / friendships with. Everyone is so far away from each other here (yes even in the Bay Area, and not to mention LA) you have to drive or commute so far to see someone. Maybe I'm still an island girl at heart, I am not used to the vast distances that friends have apart from each other.
Maybe all this thinking is happening because I'm getting really old. I'm not posting my age here, but I think I'm falling into the category of the quarter life crisis where I start to question my existence and what I am doing here. (I'm in my late late 20s, not early 20s - surprised?)
It's been almost two years I've been on my own in California (with boyfriend included), but I feel like life hasn't really begun for me yet. I'm finally on that journey going back to college to fulfill my 10 year dream of becoming a graphic designer, but now that it's finally happening, I feel so defeated. It's so hard, and my drive and passion I had for it is gone. I haven't designed anything personal for myself in months. It's always been school assignments, but never for "fun" because I honestly don't feel like it. Since when did my hobby become such a nightmare?? I don't even feel like blogging anymore. I remember I used to be so excited to make layouts, to freely mix elements that now looking from a professional standpoint seems horrendous. I miss the days when I was blind to the rules and when art was something so fun and rewarding. It just feels like a CHORE. I miss the days of making cute personal websites, fixing up my profile, taking and editing pictures and having fun with everything. School sure did open my eyes, but it sure took away my passion of designing for fun. I don't get it. I feel like quitting because now I'm not sure if design is something I want to do for the rest of my life as my career. I don't get it, I wanted this for so long, and now I don't love it anymore?? You know that saying, BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU WISH FOR, YOU JUST MIGHT GET IT? Yes, well that certainly applies now.
I just feel so physically exhausted. I feel like I'm going no where. I feel so lost and disconnected from both the real world and the internet world. Is there someone out there who can possibly know how I feel?
Anyway, I'm going to keep this up for awhile. I could really use some feedback right now or advice. I remember being this vulnerable on livejournal, and I feel like that after leaving livejournal, that this blogspot I had for about 2 years was just scratching the surface dripping with artificiality - fashion entries, what I ate, who I went out with, what did they wear, what did I wear, places I been. Yes, these were all fun entries to write about, and yet, it seemed so impersonal, artificial. I never really blogged about my feelings here on blogspot, like how I did on livejournal. It could be because of the "friends only" feature as well? For some reason, it felt weird to do that in blogspot because anybody could read what I feel, unlike in livejournal. but i'm just gonna let it all out this time. just this one time.
alone and vulnerable
Does anybody still read my blogspot nowadays?? Since this year started , it's funny because my interest in fashion and design has sort of waned. yes, even gyaru fashion. Maybe it's my lack of girl friends here in California? Seriously, I'm also to blame, but I feel like I've lost touch with meeting with girl friends on a regular basis.. I guess school and work has been taking so much of my time for me to even have a social life. Plus I'm so exhausted after both school and work, the only time I have left is for sleeping. I think I'm getting old. Also, there are people always moving away, my two BFF are in Alabama and Japan, whenever I make plans to meet with someone, they're either busy or they have no money, when I get invited as well, it's always the wrong timing and I never have money.
I'm not sure, but the bubble I lived in Hawaii seems so comforting now. Is it because of the tiny island, that I was able to meet with friends on a regular basis? It was so easy to drive from Kapolei to Honolulu because even though of the horrendous traffic, it was feasible. I feel like here on the mainland, I feel so disconnected from people I could have potentially great relationships / friendships with. Everyone is so far away from each other here (yes even in the Bay Area, and not to mention LA) you have to drive or commute so far to see someone. Maybe I'm still an island girl at heart, I am not used to the vast distances that friends have apart from each other.
Maybe all this thinking is happening because I'm getting really old. I'm not posting my age here, but I think I'm falling into the category of the quarter life crisis where I start to question my existence and what I am doing here. (I'm in my late late 20s, not early 20s - surprised?)
It's been almost two years I've been on my own in California (with boyfriend included), but I feel like life hasn't really begun for me yet. I'm finally on that journey going back to college to fulfill my 10 year dream of becoming a graphic designer, but now that it's finally happening, I feel so defeated. It's so hard, and my drive and passion I had for it is gone. I haven't designed anything personal for myself in months. It's always been school assignments, but never for "fun" because I honestly don't feel like it. Since when did my hobby become such a nightmare?? I don't even feel like blogging anymore. I remember I used to be so excited to make layouts, to freely mix elements that now looking from a professional standpoint seems horrendous. I miss the days when I was blind to the rules and when art was something so fun and rewarding. It just feels like a CHORE. I miss the days of making cute personal websites, fixing up my profile, taking and editing pictures and having fun with everything. School sure did open my eyes, but it sure took away my passion of designing for fun. I don't get it. I feel like quitting because now I'm not sure if design is something I want to do for the rest of my life as my career. I don't get it, I wanted this for so long, and now I don't love it anymore?? You know that saying, BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU WISH FOR, YOU JUST MIGHT GET IT? Yes, well that certainly applies now.
I just feel so physically exhausted. I feel like I'm going no where. I feel so lost and disconnected from both the real world and the internet world. Is there someone out there who can possibly know how I feel?
Anyway, I'm going to keep this up for awhile. I could really use some feedback right now or advice. I remember being this vulnerable on livejournal, and I feel like that after leaving livejournal, that this blogspot I had for about 2 years was just scratching the surface dripping with artificiality - fashion entries, what I ate, who I went out with, what did they wear, what did I wear, places I been. Yes, these were all fun entries to write about, and yet, it seemed so impersonal, artificial. I never really blogged about my feelings here on blogspot, like how I did on livejournal. It could be because of the "friends only" feature as well? For some reason, it felt weird to do that in blogspot because anybody could read what I feel, unlike in livejournal. but i'm just gonna let it all out this time. just this one time.
Fashion dolls - Tonner dolls
Sunt superbe! O adevarata colectie de inspiratie. Nu ma mai satur sa le admir. Poate ca nu am o colectie de papusi, dar sigur am o colectie de fotografii de pe net pe care le "rasfoiesc" si din care ma inspir. Printre ele sunt papusile Tonner care ocupa un loc de podium in preferintele mele.
Get My Look: Pop O' Green
Product Review: Lorac TANtalizer
Greek goddess in a bottle, also known as body bronzing luminizer.
A little goes a long way. The smooth cream rubs on with plenty of shimmer, and it smells like cocoa butter.
Yes, this quick-drying formula is great when you don't have hours to process a self-tan but want a warm glow. I would recommend it for arms, legs, and any other body parts that could use a little color.
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Fashion dolls - o pasiune de-o viata pe scurt
Banuiesc ca nu sunt putine cele care au avut in copilarie o papusa asemanatoare, dar care se numea Cindy (cam asa). Era de cele mai multe ori blonda si avea o rochie alcatuita din body, fusta cu volane si o ceva pusa pe cap care semana cu o bavetica, dar tinea loc de coronita. Eu am avut doua: una cu rochie rosie si una cu rochie roz.
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Despre schitare, desen, fashion design si mazgaleala ordonata
Monday, April 25, 2011
Liv Nootenboom (Part II)
Liv Nootenboom (Part II)
Rings - 26 April 2011
Saturday, April 23, 2011
Briose simple, aurii
Am cautat pe net o reteta de briose. Mi s-a facut pofta si am pus mana sa fac. Curajoasa rau, pentru ca aragazul meu nu are un cuptor functionabil, asa ca am folosit un gratar rotund, pentru aragaz, de pus pe ochiul mic. Musai cu gaura pe mijloc pentru o incalzire cat mai uniforma a tuturor brioselor.
Ingrediente:
400 g faina;
2 oua;
100 g unt;
350 ml lapte;
200 g zahar;
un praf de copt pt 500 gr faina;
zahar pudra pentru ornat;
Mod de preparare:
Se mixeaza cu paletele pentru maioneza cele 2 oua cu zaharul, cu zaharul vanilinat si esentele pana se face o spuma cremoasa. Se topeste untul si se raceste nitel. Adaugam untul, uleiul, apoi laptele prin firicel, pe margine, in timp ce mixam.
Se amesteca o mana de faina cu praful de copt, apoi cu restul fainii. Se adauga compozitia mixata turnand in fir potrivit, in timp ce amestecam cu mixerul, cu paletele pentru coca.
Compozitia se pune in forme de briose (muffins) cu hartiute de copt. Pe un gratar de aragaz incap circa 7 forme. In total mi-au iesit 19 briose.
Se lasa la copt circa 35-40 minute pe serie, la foc mediu, sa nu se arda si sa nu ramana crude in mijloc. Verificati sa fie coapte bine si la fundul formei, si in interior, pentru ca nu este un cuptor etans. Daca mai este nevoie (pentru ca nu toti avem aceeasi flacara de aragaz) le mai lasati 5-10 min. Cine are, poate folosi cuptorul aragazului incalzit si atunci le lasa circa 15 min, verificandu-le.
Se servesc simple, cu zahar pudra sau cu un patratel de ciocolata la o cana de ceai, cafea, lapte sau pur si simplu. :D
Mucenici muntenesti "tunati" :))
Thursday, April 21, 2011
The Versatile Blogger Award
I would like to send a HUGE thanks to Rachel from Our Creative Hands Blog for presenting me with this wonderful award. I really appreciate it! :) My answers are so similar to yours Rachel! I believe that is why we get along so beautifully.... because we think alike!
Here are the rules:
Thank the person who awarded you.
Divulge 7 things about yourself.
Award 15 discovered bloggers.
7 Things About Me:
1.) I personally feel I have to be the luckiest woman in the entire world. I have a loving wonderful family and I get to be with them all the time because I work from home! I get to choose my own hours and because I'm the boss.... I can take a day off or go to events anytime I want! Most importantly... I can be around when my kids or husband need me..... which makes me and them the happiest!
2.) I am thankful every morning for waking up next to my very loving, handsome, wonderful, sweet, kind, thoughtful, supportive, amazing husband.
3.) I am the mommy of 5 really amazing, sweet, loving, smart, beautiful kids who I love more than anything!!!
4.) I love my job so much that I can't imagine not doing it. It would break my heart.
5.) I am a very sarcastic person who likes to cut up with my family. We are always laughing and joking around. The sound of my children's or husband's laughter... is music to my ears! I just love it! I have found that laughter is a great medicine! Whenever one of the kids are upset..... I will do my best to make them giggle and laugh.... and whatever is upsetting them goes away!
6.) I refuse to eat breakfast EARLY in the morning. I just can't do it.... : )
7.) I love all types of music (except hard rock and hard to understand rap)!
15 Blogs That I feel Deserve This Versatile Blogger Award:
Hummmm..... this is a tough one!!
♥ Rachel at Our Creative Hands Blog
(http://ourcreativehands.blogspot.com)
♥ Diane at Brya's Baskets Blog
(http://bryasbaskets.blogspot.com)
♥ Valery at This N That Boutique Blog
(http://thisnthatboutiqueblog.blogspot.com)
♥ Kim at Little Ladybug Designs Blog
(http://littleladybugdesigns.blogspot.com)
♥ Jacqueline at First Impression Favors Blog
(http://firstimpressionfavors.blogspot.com)
♥ Barb at Feel Excellent Blog
(http://www.feelexcellent.net)
♥ Lisa at Military Momz Blog
(http://militarymomz.blogspot.com)
♥ Nathalie at Recupe Fashion Blog
(http://www.recupefashion.blogspot.com)
♥ Karen at I am the Princess
(http://iamtheprincessblog.blogspot.com)
♥ Maureen at Online Shopping Boutique Blog
(http://onlineshoppingboutique.blogspot.com)
♥ Lisa at Fun Child Learning Activities Blog
(http://www.mylittlerembrandt.blogspot.com)
♥ Shalene at Affiliate Mom Blog
(http://www.affiliate-mom.com)
♥ Rhonda at Mother 2 Mother Blog
(http://mother-2-mother.blogspot.com)
♥ Lisa at Kids Accessories Blog
(http://kids-accessories-by-kidcessory-haven.blogspot.com)
♥ Terry at Ciao Bella Design Blog
(http://ciaobelladesign.blogspot.com)
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Wednesday, April 20, 2011
Foot and Heel cream
This Incredible Healing Cream Has Helped Millions Restore Their Troubled Feet!
If your feet are dry and cracked—if the itching drives you crazy...if you pick at them till they're raw...if you have embarrassing foot odor—then you should know about a wonderful product that will give you fast relief and may cure your troubled feet forever!
Overnight Results Miracle Foot Repair® is made from the gel of the Aloe Vera plant which has been used for 4,000 years to help cure foot problems. It's a gentle, fast-acting natural skin moisturizer and curative that penetrates deep below the skin's surface to get at the cause of your problems. Don't Wait - Get the Relief You Need! Users say this 60% aloe foot cream feels so good and works so fast even doctors can't believe it
Instantly relieves dry, cracked, itchy feet & heels the very first time you use it! No matter what else you've tried, Miracle Foot Repair will help your troubled feet.
Fast acting relief for 1) Dryness 2) Cracks 3) Itching 4) Odors Guaranteed to 1) Repair dry 2) 2)cracked feet & heels 3) Eliminate unpleasant odors 4) Stop itchy feet 5) Safe for use by diabetics
How it works Miracle of Aloe Heel Repair Cream works to effectively repair dry, cracked, callused heels while soothing, moisturizing, softening and protecting skin. Miracle Heel Repair cream combines 3 butters (Shea, Cocoa and Mango) proven skin protectants and 60% Ultra Aloe - the purest, most potent form of whole leaf Aloe Vera gel, to effectively penetrate, repair, condition and protect severely dry, cracked and damaged heels. Cell renewal is accelerated to speed up and promote the healing of damaged skin - fast!
Your heels will look and feel great. Make your feet look & feel 10 years younger! For thousands of years, the Aloe Vera plant has been treasured for its ability to re-moisturize and revitalize dry, damaged skin.
1 bottle for $13, 2 for $24, they have other products too..
to buy: http://www.singaporemotherhood.com/forumboard/messages/581296/5365930.html?1303265033
email: shortshortgal@gmail.com
I think best to wear with socks to retain the moisture in also..
xoxo
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Foot and Heel cream
This Incredible Healing Cream Has Helped Millions Restore Their Troubled Feet!
If your feet are dry and cracked—if the itching drives you crazy...if you pick at them till they're raw...if you have embarrassing foot odor—then you should know about a wonderful product that will give you fast relief and may cure your troubled feet forever!
Overnight Results Miracle Foot Repair® is made from the gel of the Aloe Vera plant which has been used for 4,000 years to help cure foot problems. It's a gentle, fast-acting natural skin moisturizer and curative that penetrates deep below the skin's surface to get at the cause of your problems. Don't Wait - Get the Relief You Need! Users say this 60% aloe foot cream feels so good and works so fast even doctors can't believe it
Instantly relieves dry, cracked, itchy feet & heels the very first time you use it! No matter what else you've tried, Miracle Foot Repair will help your troubled feet.
Fast acting relief for 1) Dryness 2) Cracks 3) Itching 4) Odors Guaranteed to 1) Repair dry 2) 2)cracked feet & heels 3) Eliminate unpleasant odors 4) Stop itchy feet 5) Safe for use by diabetics
How it works Miracle of Aloe Heel Repair Cream works to effectively repair dry, cracked, callused heels while soothing, moisturizing, softening and protecting skin. Miracle Heel Repair cream combines 3 butters (Shea, Cocoa and Mango) proven skin protectants and 60% Ultra Aloe - the purest, most potent form of whole leaf Aloe Vera gel, to effectively penetrate, repair, condition and protect severely dry, cracked and damaged heels. Cell renewal is accelerated to speed up and promote the healing of damaged skin - fast!
Your heels will look and feel great. Make your feet look & feel 10 years younger! For thousands of years, the Aloe Vera plant has been treasured for its ability to re-moisturize and revitalize dry, damaged skin.
1 bottle for $13, 2 for $24, they have other products too..
to buy: http://www.singaporemotherhood.com/forumboard/messages/581296/5365930.html?1303265033
email: shortshortgal@gmail.com
I think best to wear with socks to retain the moisture in also..
xoxo
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Froulette - Affordable and Chic accessories
Goldowl at $9.90
One can never go wrong with pearls as accessorries..so classic and never out of date..hehe..$5.90
Black ribbons earrings $4.90
This layer necklaces best go with tube or dark shade clothings..$9.90
Nude bracelet $8.90..love the fake diamonds around it..
as you can see, their accessories are not more then $15..worth to buy!!
http://froulette.com/index.html
xoxo
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Froulette - Affordable and Chic accessories
Goldowl at $9.90
One can never go wrong with pearls as accessorries..so classic and never out of date..hehe..$5.90
Black ribbons earrings $4.90
This layer necklaces best go with tube or dark shade clothings..$9.90
Nude bracelet $8.90..love the fake diamonds around it..
as you can see, their accessories are not more then $15..worth to buy!!
http://froulette.com/index.html
xoxo
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Tuesday, April 19, 2011
The Power of Words... How will you use your words?
Powerfully moving and thought provoking! The person that shared this with me cried when she watched it. I watched it and was powerfully moved to tears as well. Our words have the power to encourage/uplift and make us feel loved. They also have the power to hurt and destroy. How will you use your words? Share this with someone else today.
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Lisa ~ Owner of My Colorful Treasures Web Design & Development
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